So different

This adoption feels so different from the first. Actually, it just feels so much LESS than the first...or I guess, I just feel so much less. Not to say that I don't VERY MUCH desire another child. I do. It's just weird. Maybe it's too early in the process to feel much of anything about it. I already have a child who is here, living and breathing, and real. It's too much to put my brain and heart around the "idea" of my next child. Although I do lie awake in bed at night thinking of baby names (mostly girl names), the idea of a boy is still so far removed from me. I'm sure in time I will dive in, head first, like I did before. I'll start nesting and dreaming...
I am really excited about the fact that I am definitely going to travel to Korea to pick him/her up. Jay will stay home, but I need to go. Need to soak in the Country and all it has to offer - I need to fall head over heels in love with Korea the way I did with China.
My sister is going to come with me! She told me, out of the blue, last week that she wanted to come with. I was shocked! But, I am SO SO SO thrilled that the two of us will be taking this trip together. We will have the best time...I'm glad that she is going to experience this adoption from the beginning first-hand. It was so sad in China, just being able to communicate over the phone. This will be huge for us!
So, that is where I am right now in this process. Kind-of all over the place, but deep down I am calm, trusting that God has it all figured out - so I don't have to.

Here we go again!

I decided it was time to start another blog - one to journal the events leading up to baby #2. There are already wonderful things happening on our Korean adoption journey! God has already moved mightily and we are excited to see what else He has in store for us.
Our paperwork is finished. Our homestudy is completed and will be sent to Korea shortly. We have the money to pay our agency's fees and we even have some money in our savings account to go toward the LARGE fee that will be due when we get our referral! We were sent two very generous gifts in the mail from loving, caring, generous friends...we are SO very blessed!

God just keeps reminding me that He is IN this with us, and we have no reason to worry. Anytime I feel anxious, I just close my eyes and cast my cares on Him.
Jay and I are working a ton. During the week we see each other very little...but this is a temporary situation. I am already thinking of ways to change our work situation - it will happen, sooner rather than later. (God has already shown me what I need to do.) I'll quote a book that I'm reading right now "I will believe that what God has placed inside me is superior to the mountains that stand in my way." Amen, and Amen!

So, Baby Korea: we are thinking of you, praying for you, loving you, working hard to bring you home, and waiting as patiently as we can until that day arrives.
XO Mom, Dad, and Lily